in my field of paper flowers.

it's not going today. maybe because it's my first day of school, maybe it's because i had to drag myself out of my bed today, 
maybe it's because i don't
have koen in my near presence. during the day it went a little, as long as i kept bussy. but now i hate i hate i hate today. stupid rintjo who thinks he's something. well guess what! he's nothing! he's not my buddy! and koen is like a 1000 times better than him! in all things. and why does everybody thinks they know me? nobody really knows me exactly. no-one really wants to learn to know me. what a shity day. you know what rintjo said to me? you wanna know? well, he told me that i was the little slave of koen, and i was mad at him (rintjo) because koen told me so. than offcourse i got mad and told him he could smodder in this stupid fight, and that if he was planning to fight more with koen, he shouldn't come near me either. than, he talked to leentje.he even believed himself when he told leentje that koen wanted to ruin our "great friendship" (guess what, asshole, i'm not your friend, and i've never been) because he was jealous. i hate this shit. i hate today. i hate feelings. and i hate the sun. glad now the moon is big and silver shining me happy. glad this day is over. glad i fall in a deep sleep in a few houers, and allmost feel dead. i hope tomorow goes better.