arrival (24/17/07)

2 seconds, i had the illusion i saw a star. untill i saw him moving, faster and faster. and than he just stopped shining, and became clearly it wasn't a star. weird, how i thaught i saw something for just a second. how i felt happyer and softer for not more than 2 seconds, what means nothing in a human life, until the thing stopped shining and became reality again. today is thrown away. all day long i've sit, watched, waited. just to go to another country, just to go watch -together with a milion other tourists- the people who live here,while we just see them as something we like to see. like an object of decoration "world". like something that's painted against the sky. and am i happy now? no. i don't think so. it's hard to pretend like i don't know any better, while my mind sais something else. it's hard to feel loved while i know their smiles are cold and hard in the inside. it's cruel, but reality. we are the masters, thet have to serve us. in their own country. i don't like the taught, but i'll fit in. like the falling star that stopped shining and wasn't really a star.